Anaesthetic~~~

i'm currently doing my anaesthetic rotation in Cork University Hospital..i know those 3rd meds and above will say to me we passed that excitement oready..but yesterday really my fisrt experience on Operating Theater..mmg cool aaa...and i got to watch 2 simultaneous complicated surgery going on..1 is aortic valve replacement surgery and the other is Coronary Artery Bypass Grafting..cool seyhhh..the moment i stepped out the OT yesterday i told myself i'm gonna be a surgeon one day..it's not because i love to cut people open..it's just that i love the environment in OT..haha

And today i got to watch 3 back to back cataract surgery..and by now i think i can do the surgery by myself oready..they were kind of same surgery but different challenge in each one..the first one was like a perfect normal cataract surgery..the second is harder cause the cataract lining is very thick..the 3rd is even harder cause the pupil is not dilatted so they have to insert very small hook in different corners to open up the pupil..mmg cool laa..siap tgk undermicroscope lg..haha..and today the moment i stepped out the OT, i'm confirming myself to become a surgeon..hahah..that thought might change in the next rotation but GP certainly not on my list..hehehe...eksen sungguh..

but thats not really it actually..i'm just falling in love with all the good consultants cause they are very nice..they are very professional and they treat u professionally even when u know nothing about the procedure what so ever...the reason why i love the environment of the OT is because i think they all act with high integrity of professionalism..the consultant, the surgeon, the aneasthetist, the nurses, the engineer even the attendent..they were very professional, dedicated and mesra alam..Dr Sheila was the anaesthetist i was attched to yerterday..she was very nice..she was very enthusiatic in teaching even when she had to run here and there to check on the surgery..even when she gave us homework to do despite knowing i wont be meeting her again, still i did my homework and i was eager and excited about my homework yesterday..so i looked up everything she told us to study..that was because i was deeply affected by how professional she was in treating us the student..so i got motivated and feel appreciated..

that is what i think lacking in Malaysian environment..when the consultants acting like i-know-everything-and -u-are-just-stupid kind of behaviour then they tend to treat interns and others below than them with arrongant superiority..no body likes that..i still dont understand, why the doctors in malaysia like to work in that kind of hateful environment...derang marah2 intern, herdik2, kutuk2, maki2 of kos they also will feel bad..they know exactly how stressful a life of a doctor is, and they just decided to put more pressure and stress on their life and others..i don't know how will i survive 2 years internship in malaysia without any rebel and retaliation..

why can't they just create a healthy environment for everybody to work happily..u know most of the doctors spend like 36 hours straight sometimes in the hospital..at least a nice, friendly and cheerful environment will help to ease the stress and pressure and tiredness...the thing i love the most about ER drama was how it potrays professionalism so perfect for a working environment..they were working like a family.;.the pressure is there of kos, but the working environment was very healthy that u feel motivated to work..

Doctors really need to master leadership..nobody would love to listen to caci maki consultant everyday when the job' pressure is already too much to handle..please, don't add up the pressure..u know how difficult and stressful it is the road to become a doctor, with study study study and all..how come u just easily call people stupid after you went through the same things when u were an intern..i think the consultant who behave like that is far more stupid than the intern..the moment he call people stupid, that's is the very moment he is telling the whole world i'm more stupid than you..

aku mmg anti and x paham the kind of behaviour doktor2 pakar di malaysia nih..it was just from what i heard..derang expect the interns to be perfect ke in what they do..of kos that is a stupid and lousy expectation..i can give you a long list of medical error made by consultants..consultant pun wat salah..that's the nature of human..Dr. Shiela said to us yesterday..the Consultant are just like u and me..we made mistake..we stayed late up night and have to work in the morning..sometimes the prescription may be wrong..i love that kind of attitude..she acknowledge that first hand that they are just human like us..and they are willing to learn..and they do make mistake..when u acknowledge ur weakness that u wudnt be treating people with utmost arrogant and perangai yg sgt membencikan..

please don't call people stupid even if they can't have the canula in the veins right..it' s a learning process..sunnatullah manusia itu motivated by support and appreciation..derang mesti belajar reward system tyme derang belajar phisio dulu2..tp still x nk aplikasikan kepada real life..cett..saya anti doktor pakar yg perangai busuk..saya sayang doktor yg perangai baik..everyone does, rite??

so saya berazam untuk menjadi doktor yg baik, bukan yg suka maki caci org..nih x masuk bab nurses lagi..really i think malaysian health personel kener amik motvational and leadership course to improve their work attitude..

it's easy for me to say this and that when i have no first hand experience yet..but the irish medical personel by far is very professional that is proven by how their work is..itu mmg kener contoh aaa..

arghhh bencinye mengarut panjang2 nih..kalo korang terbaca sorry laaa..membuang masa sgt..hehe..

Mutiara Kata : Study & Life

Studying Is A Life Long Process, And Life Itself Is All But 'A' Never Ending Struggle

FENDI

ON FENDI~~

*Kacak kan Abang ini??Mari beramai2 ON FENDI di talian 63*

Assalamualaikum wbt...



Hahaha..today is Fendi's first day in hospital...wuhuuuu..yeeehaaaa...*clap2*..he went to St. Finbarr Hospital, for a visit.....hehehe..but that's not really the point..



pointnyer adalah semalam lg fendi dah bersiap2 dengan seterika baju dan seluaq..itu mmg sedikit pelik bin ajaib sbb fendi jarang giler iron baju...hahaha...mmg bergaya aa..so aku pun determine utk melihat fendi di pagi hari dengan gaya kacak nyer sebelum dia pergi class..semalam aku dgn bali dak tease2 dier dah..hahaha..so pg nih dier sengaja wat2 lewat utk x bg aku melihat gaya kacaknya..aku mmg dr semalam lg nak amik gmba dia pakai kacak pastuh post kt blog..



tp hampehnyer fendi menggagalkan rancangan aku..sbb dah lambat, aku terpaksa bergegas ke kelas sbb ada lab...tp sebelum pergi aku dan lagi bersekongkol ngan Kamil..haha..aku bg camera kt kamil suh take pic dier...haha..



semangat x aku amik gamba pendi..hahaha..bukan apa, dah lama x tgk fendi kacak sebegitu..the last time was during the depature here kot..and tyme ppmc nyer AGM..hahaha...dulu kat KMB fendi aaa paling kacak..Mak Cik2 Dewan Selera suma puji die smart..sbb dia akan pakai tie dr pagi sampai petang..hahaha...mmg terbakss aa fendi..ini adalah jejaka terhangat di 63 buat masa sekarang..cepat2 jgn terlambat..Jika berminat sila ON Fendi di talian 63...cepat sementara masih PANAS..kahkahakah

*Entry ini adalah bersifat promosi secara percuma.Pihak penganjur tidak mengaut sebarang keuntungan..hahaha..*

p/s : trend ON kat cork semakin menjadik2..haha..

Shedot Super Sunday : Saya Yang Depress

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Long time no see everybody here..haha..this last few days i'm feeling so much better and think i can be writting up something again..huhuhu..

I was having depression since last month..when i mean depression, i really mean it..haha..like i was very depress and sad..

I think it was the first time in life i ever behave like that kot..cam mana laa penah nk depress2 sebelum nih kan..it's just that, my fun-lovely-carefree life of glass has crashed into pieces..terkpasa menghadapi realiti yg sgt perit dan pedih utk diterima..yer laa..i was living my life with hapiness and joy..mmg x perlu pikir paper pun selama 21 tahun dah hidup nih..mmg enjoy abiss laa kan dengan kehidupan yg penuh ceria dan riang ria dari zaman kanak2 sehingga remaja..sudden2 u realized sumthing is very wrong with u and ur life..and u just don't know how to deal with it..and ur mind just keep on thinking all about the sad things..it was very difficult to deal with..so sepanjang Ramadhan mmg kesedihan, ketensionan, kemoodyan jer kejer..

x pernah ku duga hidupku akan sampai ke satu titik, where i feel like locking up myself in my room for the whole day and x nak jumpa org langsung..all that i did was staring blanklessly into sumthing and tears started to welling up as i was thinking about lots of thing..when i was tired of termenung dan bersedihan i just fell into sleep..whenever i feel really bad, i just think sleeping was the best medicine.. i don't laugh, i don't really talk much, i dont sing in room or in the toilet anymore, i dont read any book at all, i dont do all things that i love to do before..i wake up every morning, thinking i must really live my life today, then bila sampai ptg jer mmg kesedihan teramat dan i just sleep..and bgn bukak puasa dgn muka masamnya..haha..mmg setiap masa dok pikir nk balik umah jer..cam nk lari dari sini and balik Mesia..hidup dengan aman nyer..haha..

sian laa kt housemate2 aku yg terpaksa mengadap muka stress dan moody aku yg seperti hendak penyepak nih kan..sian derang..even i know, hak seorang muslim terhadap muslim itu adalah sekurang2nya utk mendapat sebuah senyuman, tp still i just cud'nt do that because i was very sad and doomed..so aku tunjuk muka masam jerr kt derang..sian derang..sorry yer korang..and at one moment i just ran away to Killarney for the weekend to take a break and just to think..best gila pergi Killarney..cam very peaceful and i liked it a lot...

i believe time is the best medicine..and it's true..now things are better and i can live my life better..not having to stare at the same sad eyes everytime u look into the mirror..Alhamdulillah..but i don't know when the break down is gonna happen again..hohoho..hopefully when it happens i can have a quick recovery and better prognosis is expected..hehehe..

The other day, i was telling Bazlina Matadusuki, i'm living a very sad life now..to survive for an hour is so hard nowadays and i think i was losing all the will to live..and so he said " The saddest man in the world is Rasulullah. You shoud be happy cause you are not the saddest man. Rasulullah has set a very high standard for you to follow"..so i thought it's very true..Indeed Rasulullah is the saddest man in the world after what he went through but he still stood firm in Iman..whenever u feel sad just think La Tahzan Innallaha Maana ( Don't be sad, Verily Allah is with you) and think of how sad but very strong Rasulullah is, surely u feel better..





And just few weeks ago i listen to my favourite Good Charlotte's song, Hold On..the lyrics goes like this..

"We all bleed the same way as you do, and we all have the same thing to go through"..

listening to that really i believe that others situation is much worse than me but they keep on living strongly and spiritfully..so i shouldn't be sad and just lying on the bad crying all day..hahaha..



and really i believe there's so many people who struggles so much in life but they never give up..and i just listen to Siti Muslihah' song Hujan Air Mata..sedih gilaa membayangkan org2 lain yg lebih sukar hidupnya..Ujian yg Allah berikan kepada mereka lagi berat..There's a hadith from Rasulullah berbunyi..

"Sekiranya Allah menginginkan kebaikan untuk seseorang itu, Allah akan mengujinya dengan kesusahan"..

Semoga aku tergolong dalam golongan yang diingankan kebaikan untukku oleh Allah


dgr tau lagu nih..sedih sgt...

Hopefully, i will have a better life a head of me..everything happens for a reason..Firman Allah

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui".(Al Baqarah : 216)

Saya ingin hidup gembira dan ceria seperti sebelumnya..hidup saya mmg ceria dan bahagia..pleasee jgn laa sedih2..hehe..


p/s : x sangka shedot ada fan..wow...terasa macam artis plak..haha..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

WARGA 63 INGIN MENGUCAPKAN SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI KEPADA KAUM KELUARGA, SAHABAT HANDAI, GURU-GURU DAN JUGA PENGUNJUNG-PENGUNJUNG BLOG D-POSTERS.

KAMI MENGHULURKAN JARI SEPULUH MEMOHON MAAF ATAS SEGALA KESALAHAN & KESILAPAN.

BERGEMBIRALAH DI HARI RAYA MENYAMBUT KEMENANGAN PERJUANGAN DI MEDAN RAMADHAN YANG BARU BERLALU.

TAQABALALLAHU MINNA WA MIN KUM

(SEMOGA ALLAH MENERIMA AMALAN AKU & KAMU)

Sunnah Aidilfitri~~

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Today..yes today..i just feel like sharing this..just wonder how The Prohet celebrated Eid and maybe we could follow his deeds on that day..

Beberapa amalan Sunnah yg dilakukan oleh Rasulullah pada Aidilfitri

1. Mandi---busuk giler perangai kalo x mandi pagi raya

2. Pakai Minyak Wangi yg terbaik dalam koleksi anda

3. Pakai pakaian yang cantik & berwarna warni yang paling terbaik dalam wardrobe anda

4. Makan terlebih dahulu sebelum Solat Aidilfitri--paling baik adalah kurma

5. Solat Sunat Aidilfitri

6. Sunat keluar rumah berziarah--Adalah disunatkan untuk melalui jalan yang berbeza ketika pergi dan pulang supaya kita ziarah lebih banyak org

7. Aidilfitri adalah hari yg seronok dan gembira, maka disunatkan untuk bergembira..Saidatina Aisyah pernah bermain kompang ketika Aidilfitri di rumah Rasulullah..Maka adalah tidak digalakkan untuk menziarahi kubur dan bersedih-sedihan di pagi raya kerana ia bertentangan dengan sunnah dan konsep Aildilfitri sendiri

8. Sunnah mengucapkan tahniah sesama Muslim. Rasulullah mengucapkan Taqabalallahu Minna Wa Min Kum ( Mudahan-Mudahan Allah menerima ibadah aku dan kamu )..Maka disamping mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir Batin, ucapkanlah ucapan tahniah diatas jua.

9. Takbir Raya---kt Cork ada Takbir raya bergerak..tempat korang mesti xder??jeles x??huahauua

Dipetik dari Kuliah Ustaz Wan Ji Wan Husin
Syarahan dari Kitab Fiqh Sunnah

Are u sick?

Smekom sume,

Di bulan2 Ramadhan yg mulia ni, for sure kte rse letih2, mls2, saket2 esp kte yg brpuase di tanah eropah n...puase berejam2...stat pkl 4.30 bkk pkl 8.30...mgkin keadaan physio badan kte yg x biase dgn puase yg panjang ni mmbuatkn kte rase saket dan sbagainye...malah ade jge yg mgadu saket mental...hehe

Namun begitu, Islam sbagai agama yg syumul melalui Rasulullah SAW telah mggariskan bbrpe prkara agar kita x lah brasa saket2...ikutilah...iAllah...

The Holy Prophet (SAW) Said:
1) Four things that make your body sick:-

a)Excessive talking
b)Excessive sleeping
c)Excessive eating and
d)Excessive meeting/outing with people

2) Four things that destroys the body:-
a)Worrying
b)Sorrow (Sadness/Grief)
c)Hunger
d)Sleeping late at night


3) Four things that make the face looking dull and haggard:-
a)Lying
b)Being disrespectful/impudent (knowingly)
c) Baseless arguements
d)Excessive immorality (committing sins without fear)

4) Four things that make the face glow and shine:-
a) Piety
b) Loyalty
c) Generosity and kindness
d)Helpful to others without being asked

5) Four things make the Rizqi (Sustenance) stop:-
a) Sleeping till late in the morning (from Fajr to sunrise)
b) Not Performing Fardhu or Irregular in Prayers
c) Laziness/Idleness
d) Treachery/Dishonesty

6) Four things that bring/increase the Rizqi:-
a) Staying up in the night in prayers
b) Excessive Repentance
c) Regular Charity
d) Zikr (Remembrance of Allah)

Take A Break

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Selamat Ramadhan...
hehehe...i just tot i need i break from writting anything cause everyhting that came out of my mind just crap and bull****(bukan kepala lembu berdarah)...
i'm not in a good state of mental and emotional being to be writting something..i'm afraid writting in this state will bring no good to anybody...hihihi
but rest assured...i'll be back..wahahaha...(mcm laa ada org baca entry2 aku pun selain aku sendiri)..muahahaha
in the mean time, Usop Bazli, Fendi and Kamil will be writting something...
people must love to hear from you guys...
how long will i take a break??maybe 2 days, 2 weeks or 2 months..wahahaha..
ekceli i'm giving the floor to others to write sumthing up..not my old same story again and again..
so people write sumthing yer...hihih
adiosss~~~

Mutiara Kata : Persistence @ Istiqamah

That Which We Persist In Doing Becomes Easier - Not That The Nature of The Task Has Changed, But Our Ability To Do It Has Increased

Emerson

Therapy for Depression~~

I wonder which is a better therapy for depression..is it sleeping? working? or cooking?...hurmmm...

Fever~~~

assalamualaikum eberybody..

how's Ramadhan??it's tough here in Cork..hahaha..but getting along well..

owh just nk citer arituh kan aku demam..it was my second day here in Cork that i got high fever..of kos not suspected as h1n1...and it's kinda worse fever i think i had..i mean i was soooo fatigue that i could not even get out of bed..all things that i cud do was to sleep..and somewhere in the afternoon i just need to get back and eat something...my stomach is crunching..haha..so i escape puasa satu hari...waaaa tensi nyer kener ganti posa dah 2 hari dah..sehari tyme musafir arituh..*wink2*...i slept for more than 24 hours..it was part of the jet lag as well..so i skipped class for 2 days and missed most of my clinical orientation..of kos i'm not selfish enuff to go to class and spread all the germs that i coughed out during physical examnination on my partner...that rubbish init??(british accent maybe?)..hahaha...

the second day, i had my sahur with panadol and water and had to puasa cause i dont want to ganti2..mmg x feel laa raya nnti posa x penuh..i wonder how women feels for not able to complete their puasa for almost every year???hurmmm..hahaha...second day yg best sgt..dah laa bukak posa lambat gila kan..so i was like a small child trying to fast for the first tyme..i was waiting infront of the clock and counting every seconds of it..wishing it to move faster..i't kind of reminisce me of my first experience of puasa penuh..and you fell just like eating everything in the world..to make the time feel faster i watched a few korean dramas..but korean dramas never felt that long..i wonder when i going to finish watching them after feeling it was so long..haha..and klaka nye there's a scene in the drama where they shot somewhere in the waterfall and the water is very blue and delicious.. and i was like gulping my saliva wishing i cud drink all the water in the pool..waterfall never looks tastier than that believe me...hahaha..

you know what 1 thing i learnt that day was i was trying to put my self in a shoe of those who has been starving..even if they were counting the seconds they won't be having time to break their 'fast' and they can't eat their hearts out when the time comes like we did...how's it like counting seconds but not having a time for you to expect it shoud be done counting..what it feels like having had to be hungry and not having a time when you have the hope of getting to eat..owhh poor people..that's why ada hadith nabi yg lebih kurang camnih..setiap sesuatu itu ada zakatnya, dan zakat untuk badan adalah puasa...supaya kita turut rasa camna org len rasa and thus learn a thing or two from it...

The thing about being sick is that you get a feeling of what being sick is like..i was only sick for only a day but my spirit was oready down the drain..cud you imagine those with chronic disease, having constant weakness and irritation..i guess fever teach you a little bit of empathy not to go around the ward feeling annoying by sick patients assuming they all pretend to be sick where as they shud be strong while they are sick..that'a a total bull shit kind of thought i was having before..haha..what a bad doctor i will be..

moga2 sakit itu merupakan kafarah dosa2 lampau yg semakin hari semakin menggunung...huhu

but these few days i was hoping to be sick(fever) for once in life like i had the days before...crazy huh??...it feels so good to shut your mind for a while..not having had to think of a thing..i wish i cud just sleep for a day and not having had to think of anything...and waking up they day after smiling for having such a good time...cause thinking make me so much in pain that i wanna run away..but got nowhere to run cause it's part of me...huhuh...'doremon tolong lah bagi alat utk tidor seharian'..puhwease doremon..hahah

p/s : owh forgot to mention, i got bazli infected as well..sorry yer..poor you...

From Cambodia With Love : Duktur Shedot in Action

Inilah wajah my first patient that i performed a mini surgery on him..sorry yer dik kalo besar2 tgk x cantik jahitan tuh..muahahah...

Memalukan...2nd Med x reti nk amek BP pun..pastuh siap kena ajar depan makcik2 nih suma lg..naseb derang cool..heheh

Assisting Nurse Ati a.k.a Sudin..hihihihi

Assisting Nurse Sari yang garang...oui oui oui oui ~~~

Attending surgeon assisted by 'Nurse' Fiqa..budak nih x nangis langsung walopun masih kecik..mmg cool aa dik..jgn risau..ko nyer abang dah jahit cun2 dah..haha

Attending Surgeon with a very critical observer, Mr Faimee...'Shedot, you were trembling'.faimee said and the next day he was shaking harder than me but was in denial..cettt

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