Housemanship

Assalamualaikum wbt

Alhamdulillah, after quite a while not writing anything, given a time and chance by Allah to just scribble down thoughts and feelings about life....

*intro kna bahasa inggeris sket, baru mantop..lepas nih bahasa rojakksss...:D*

Just started housemanship 2 months ago. I'm starting with Orthopedic and beloved wife with Surgery...Oh my..tagging days for 14 days was a nightmare..went back at 12am everyday for 14 days and had to come to ward and review patient at 5.30am everyday..nasib baik rumah dekat, boleh jln kaki ja.. bgn pkul 5.00 pun sempat..Rasa mcm a walking zombie je everyday..very tiring..Blk memang tak fikir benda lain melainkan tidur..Sian Amani..terpaksa tinggal dia kat kuala nerang..mmg berhari2 la x jumpa dia...

Alhamdulillah, lepas tagging, life seems much better...Starting to enjoy my work as a doctor...:)
I always want to remember the first week as a houseman..a total clueless, blur and super blurrrrrrrrr..macam semua benda tak tahu...blurrrr yg teramatt..kalau fikir blk mesti sgt klaka..

Kerja dekat IT hospital nih mmgla at the beginning tough sket nk biasakan diri dgn systems computer..buat kerja mmg teramatlah slowww..hehe..pastuh nk kena hafal each case dgn details when everything seems to be very unfamiliar..nama fracture bones yg pelik2, procedure yg mcm2..pastuh nk kna present, terbelit lidah...hihi

Mula2 kerja, almost everyday kena marah dgn MO...sampai nk dtg kerja pun cuak sbb takut buat salah n kena marah...memang awal2 rasa demotivated nk kerja..dgn penatnya, takut kena marahnya..environment sgt tidak memberikan motivasi..Pernah skali MO tarik kolar baju dgn tidak puas hatinya..wohoooo...kalau tetiba ada phone call, mesti dah palpitations and dok pikir apa salah aku buat arinih..hihi..Alhamdulillah, i had my colleagues yg very helpful and friendly...the job that i hate the most is inserting branula and blood taking..bukan benci sbb apa, sbb sgt tidak terer nk masuk branula..kesian kt patient kna cucuk bnyk kali...first day try nk masuk branula kt 4 patients..semua gagal...hihi..second day berjaya buat satu, rasa gumbira super...hahaha..tp nk ambik ABG still slalu fail lg..kna prektis lg...hehe

Eventhough you work from 5.30am up till 6.00pm (kalau bernasib baik boleh blk pkul 6), tp still rasa masa berlalu dgn cepat, sbb life is very fast moving in ward...semua benda nk kna cepat..tup tup dah pkul 6..hehe.

I noticed after 2 months, kita dah mcm kurang sket concern and care about patient...i mean a sincere concern..waktu awal2 masuk kerja, i worried almost everything about my patient..but now, mcm nk just get the job done..dah jd work oriented instead of people oriented..sometime terlupa, we are dealing with humans with hearts, feelings and emotion...

The thing i feel sorry the most is Amani...huhu..sian dia..tiap2 hari dpt spend masa dgn parents dia for 2-3 hours je..tuh pun Mama and Papa dia dah super penat nk melayan dia lg...mula2 tuh dia mmg nk kita dukung jer bila blk kerja...letak jer nangiss..dah la tgh penat kan..kdg2 geram la jugak..tp bila fikir balik kesian sgt kt dia...she really want the attention from Mama and Papa dia..sbb tuh yg nk dukung jer tuh..dia boleh je main sendiri2 dia, tp she must have missed us a lot and wanted to hug and be with her parents je...Now, trying our best to spend quality time with her..:)

Semoga Allah bantu mudahkan kehidupan kami sekeluarga...tiap2 hari, i will remind myself utk bekerja dgn ikhlas dan bertawakkal kpd Allah atas setiap urusan kehidupan..tinggalkan anak dibawah jagaan Allah, hati rasa aman dan tenang..