Shedot's Super Sunday: I'm Not A Boy, Not Yet A Man

Today's super sunday is very special for me..i'm not going to update you guys with matters related to entertainment industry or wutsoever..today it's gonna be exclusively ME..coz today is my 21st birthday..yeay!!!!..Hepi Beshday to me..today's entry gonna be a bit longer as the word 'super' indicates the length of my entry...

today i'm telling you guys who i am..cewahh..nih termasuklah menjawab tag dr nad dulu yerr..hihi..i was born in kuala nerang(beranak bidan jer kat my grandma's house)..when i was a baby i got severy skin disease which i dont know what..my mom also don't know..i never ask her why she didn't send me to hospital or wutsoever..i guess maybe it was how things were at that time..my mom had to ask my cousin to take care of me because my mom wasn't really healthy at that time..my mom said, they had to wrap me using Daun Pisang instead of napkin or baju because the cotton will stick to my body and cause bleeding..sian x???sian kan...hahaha..but then i got healthier and comellier..i grew up in taman mesra kuala nerang..it was a great neighborhood where people mempunyai semangat kejiranan yg sgt kuat..i miss all my childhood friends..i grew up with them..when i was a kid like 3-4 years old i used to berlari2 around the taman naked and went to grocery shop to buy icecream naked..hahaha..that's why i am so tanned now i guess..i was so stubborn when i was a kid..always cried out loud..satu taman dgr..sumer org dah immune dgn tangisan ku..hahaha..my father even had to lock me in the toilet..he put me in the kolah air and locked me in because i was crying the whole day..hahah..i guess i inherited it from my dad kot..my maklong citer, when my dad was a kid, my paklong(abang ayah aku) terpaksa ikat dier kat pokok sbb dier degil jugakk..wahaha...i played with my 2 older brothers and my friends..everyday after skool, i will change my uniform quickly and wear just short and went to play with my friends in the middle of the day..thats another reason for my tanned skin..hahaha..we play like everything..but in a kampung style..we played biji getah paling kuat, rounders, galah panjang, lawan card yg kecik tuh..tepuk atas tanah bagi dier flipped n tutup card lawan..aper ntah namer dier..banyak giler aku collect card2 tuh dulu,guli, and so many more..i also like to play with the girls..we play masak2, kawen2 and girl things..but surely no barbie doll..haha..i was the father back then who just got back from work n my wife will greet me and prepare my food..sweet x..hahaha..namer pun maen masak2 kan..and i still remember kat blakang taman kitaorg ader kebun getah..so it was the perfect place for kids to play..maen perang2 la buat markas maen kereta pun dalam tuh..we created a litar for racing kereta.. ala aper namer keter tuh..luper plak..keter dash ea..yer la kot...litar atas tanah tuh..wahaha..beshh weyh..then we went swimming..terjun sungai sambil mencari lala..then sumer org bawak balek lala sampai seminggu la mak aku masak lala tuh..hahaha..pastuh pegi kutip siput kat bendang n kalo bernasib baek dpt la ikan..haha..i still remember when i was 11 or sumthing, me my brother and my friends dgn jahatnyer pegi kencing dalam bekas yg org tadah getah scrap tuh..jahat x..pastuh kantoi ngan ustaz, tuan kebun tuh..dier kejar kitaorg dgn lastik weyh...kitaorg lari punya bagai nak rak..tp sekor pun balek sembunyi kat umah..lari ke kampung2 sebelah..hahaha...last skali member aku kantoi...pastuh nangis kener marah ngan ustaz tuh..then citer yg besh juger..tp dah citer kt housemate..xper la..when i was i kid i stole a pair of shoes from my neighbour becoz i liked it so much and i kept them in the refrigerator...hahaha...tp secret yg aku x ckp kt housemate adalah..kasut tuh kasut budak pompuan waner pink...wakakaka..comel weyhh kasut tuh..kuang2x..then my mom returned the shoe and of cos i cried...but my mom didn't buy me a new shoe like that..of cos la kan..kasut pompuan..aper kejadah plak nak beli..hahaha..banyak lg la stori tyme kecik..and 1 more thing.. aku sunat kat tok mudim weyhh...hahaha..org len mostly sunat doctor kan..tp aku still guna kampung style..hihihi....i love it when tyme utk menanam padi tiba..i will went to my grandparents house n tulun dorang tanam padi..best giler..pastuh nangis2 kener gigit lintah..pastuh leh pancing ikan dalam kolam..berkelah kat danau...carik siput..wat org2 patung tuh...then when i was 12 we moved to a new house and the neighborhood was totally different..semangat kejiranan x kuat...and kids pun x ramai..so i didnt make new friend pun kt sana..so dok umah jer la 24 jam..xleh mandi sgi n maen2 dah..

then when iwas 13 went to STAR..oh..sekolah terchenta...xnak la citer bnyk sgt kt star..lots of great stories but kept secret..hihih..but 1 thing for sure my parents rarely visit me thruout the 5 years i was there..setaun maybe sekali jer..tuh pun belom tentu..dorang cumer antar biler skolah bukak n amek bila skolah tutup every year..i guess they just want me to be independent..and i really am now..i guess the only thing i can be proud of my self is that i really am independent sbb i went to star at such a young age kan..and being away from family is a hard thing..but i only cried becoz of homesick only like once or twice when i was form 1..when i was in star, i was a school volleyball player, a malay debater and section leader for flute(star wind orchestra)..thats all..not really grand like others..but i'm really proud of myself..i had such great friends back there, menjambu betik pun sudeyh puas ketika disana...haha...and lesson of life i perfectly learned...tp 1 thing yg mmg for sure i will remember i have to run 50 round of 400 meter track becoz panjat pagar blakang utk outing..bukan fly ok..i rarely fly back then..i miss being in orchestra so much..everytime i think about those times when we struggled to be the best among the best mesti rasa nak balek ker zaman to..but it passed already..hahah..i hate my seniors yg rejek me from my house becoz of my lack of commitment utk membersihkan dorangnyer asrama..i rebelled to wash their clothes..i rebelled to be their kuli..i rebelled to be treated like a fool but still, i bought a licence..lesen utk medapatkan a bit freedom when i was form 3..bayar 30hengget..at that time it was expensive okeyh....hehe..i was so innocent before i went to star..membesar pun di kampung..i really am innocent..i knew nothing about life, sex, women(still do now..hahah) hardship, backstabbing and everything..and very2 pure and plain..but then di star great influenced from friends n seniors and culture..berubah menjadik kureng innocent..back then even i was very degil, but i really think and look everyhting in a positive way..i never think that life is so dirty and full of shit..and even after form five i still am innocent..becoz i believe everything i see..and i don't believe what people did at my back even it was dirty..i still believe they are good..i'm bad in judging people that time..thats why i called my self innocent..i don't know what people hid from me..i cant read people's intention even when its obvious..maybe the exact word naif kot..not really innocent..?tp skang tidak lg..hehehe..then masuk KMB n dtg cork..and most of my life in KMB n cork most of us dah tau kot kan..so no stori la for that..

even skang dah 21, i still believe i'm not yet a man but not a boy either..i'm think i'm mature enuff but perangai sedikit kebudakan..x leh bayang kalo kawen camner..wahaha..so kener tunggu 25 la baru kawen kot..but i'm a grown up in term of thinking and action..i can be responsible and do what others can but i'll do it my way, my style...

ok citer pasal my day today..told you its gonna be long..i woke up at 12 today..what a great time to wake up on you birthday ea..then i went shopping..i spend a lot i guess..hihi..then i had dinner together with housemates at fusion cuisine..mu housemates gave me presents weyh..i was so touched..fendi gave me choclates, bali gave me handband, usop gave me book...thank you so much weyh..sayang korang..hahaha...sweet x my housemates?sweet kan..hihihi...di harijadi ini..saya berdoa semaga panjang umor murayh rezeki and menjadi anak yang soleh, menjadi seorang yg berjaya didunia dan akhirat, and menjadi siri sendiri dan tidak hilang dihanyut ombak kehidupan..semoga Allah sentiasa melindungi dan merahmati hidup ini..amin

ok enuff la..panjang sgt org boring nak baca..that's all i can tell about myself..i'm not a perfect guy, not macho, not handsome but i love myself for who i am..hihi...hihi..

p/s btw thanks kepada sumer yg wish me epi beshday,,u guys really make my day..i'm really over the moon today..hihi