Kehilangan keFokuSan~~

Assalamualaikum wbt....

hohohohoo...bru pulang dr trip to Killarney, Limerick & Cliff of Moher bersama juniors...hehehe..it was a good trip neway..tp i'm dont want to story2 about the trip laaa..hehe..

saya sgt sedih kerana baru saya perasan, sy mengalami ganguan konsentrasi yg semakin kronik..trip ker limerick ini menyedarkan sy bahawa, i'm losing my focus in everything and it's really bad..haha..maksudnya, bru tersedar aku dah cannot concentrate and focus on things that i'm doing..really..

bukti 1 : saya terlupa buat online assesment Pharmacology which consists of 10% for final marks..bru terperasan x wat assesment itu, tyme nk sampai Killarney dah and it was 1.30 and due time was 5.00pm..hhohoho..terpaksa call fendi utk watkan..but i was really frustrated with myself..how in the world aku boleh terlupa nk wat something yg sgt penting seperti itu...

bukti 2 : saya hampir2 terlanggar kereta muiz di hadapan ketika memandu pulang dr Limerick..sempat break mengejut dengan jarak keretaku dr kereta muiz hanyalah 1 cm jer kot..hohoho...alhamdulillah x langgar keter tuh..sbb tatau samada aku berangan ker mengelamun ker aku wat apa dlm masa 3 saat then bila tersedar keter dah dekat gila nk hentam keter kt depan tuh..mmg hilang focus pada skala yg teruk disitu sehingga boleh menggugat keselamat jiwaku dan jiwa org len jua..sbb derang suma tgh tido n aku drive sorang2 then aku cam termengelamun amender ntah..arghhhh..stresss...

bukti 3 : baru tersedar, tiada satu class pun sejak start term nih yg aku betol2 focus at least 80%..aku akn focus like for the first 5 minutes dan kemudian fikiran ku mula melayang2 ke awan biru..hohoh..bila tersedar dah hilang fokus ketuk2 kepala sket supaya kembali tersedar kemudian akan fokus semula selama 5 minit dan kemudian perkara yg sama berlaku sehingga la kelas tamat...

bukti 4 : i never wrote a single note in pharm lecture, and i never remember a thing out of the lecture, and i never learn a single drug name from the lecture..hohoho sgt teruknyer perangai...sbbnya adalah fikiran sy juga melayang ker awan biru~~~

bukti 5 : sy selalu terlupa utk print notes before lecture..kalo taun2 lepas, i will have most of the lecture notes with me before the lecture..yg lebih malang adalah, printer hanyalah berada di sebelah tangga rumah yg dilalui hampir 100 kali setiap hari...

bukti 6 : bru tersedar, tiada satu task pun yg diberikan kepada yg aku handle secara 100% with focus and energy..i will be focus for the job for a day, then my mind will wander about something else and i forgot to do my works..by the time i remember to do them, i was in really bad mood so i posponed the work for tomorrow..then tomorrow the same thing happened and i forgot..so i have so many unfinished job in hands..

bukti 7 : sebelum nih selalunya aku mesti akan ingt nk call rumah seminggu sekali, tp ntah kenapa taun nih aku selalu terlupa nk call rumah...kadang2 2@3 minggu bru terigt nk call rumah..hohoho..a bad son...bila terigt nk call, kt mesia dah tgh malam dah..then ckp kt diri sendiri nk call esok pg, then esok pgnya x call pun sbb terlupa lg...

sebenarnya banyak lg bukti2 sy kehilangan fokus..and it's getting worse day by day..

maka utk itu Mohd Redhuan, anda mesti fokus semula kepada kehidupan anda..jgn dok merenung langit di luar jendela di setiap hari sahaja...

'Allahumma inna nas aluka Qalban Khashia'

Ya Allah kurniakanlah kami hati yang khusyu'

adios..